New Year's Resolutions
It's the end of the year and I'm happy to see it go. It's been a year of ups and downs - which makes sense as someone diagnosed as bipolar. As I roll into the New Year, I realize I'm ever so close to "that age". You know what that age is? It's not old age, but I'm definitely not young anymore. It's any age that I agreed upon a long time ago that I was supposed to have something going - not just something going, but somewhat set by then. I'm just about a year and a half away from hitting "that age" and I feel nowhere close to where I want / thought I would be. And even as I say this (or write this)... I find myself just wanting to do something I never did properly - record an album. I should be planning to settle down, get married, have a career - not a job, but a career - but I still see myself chasing childish things. I know I should be attempting to be an adult, a grown-up, a viable part of society - but I'm still ...